happiness is all the rage

its 2:12 am i cant sleep, and i need to be awake at 930 to go to work. willie is leaving for military monday, and i wont see him again till april. the kid who's been like my best friend since like last year-ish is gone. i wish he was staying, again one less person of ever diminishing friends to hang out with. i just wonder what i do wrong with everything, why i cant sleep, why im so tired all the time, why im so depressed in general. im so lonely its gross. its always i can hang out with a million girls who mean nothing to me all the time but its always the one i want to give a fuck about i never get anything to go right. always. im so sick of everything. in genneral

i dont care about anything anymore, i got no direction.

i feel like if woxy did really blow up, i sold millions of records id still be miserable, alone and unhappy.

posted by nicholas b. @ 2:11 AM